Thank you

Thank you to all those who have known me, loved me, feared me, hated me, all of you guys & girls. You've made me into what I am today. And today, I've learned to except it and embrase (I can't spell for shit) it. I don't care what you think or what you say behind my back or even simply in your head. I've heard it all before, and nothings ever new.
History often repeats itself and your no exception. Thank you for all those times you have helped me out. And maybe even the times to come. But more importantly thank you for helping me become who I am. The me you saw today. The me you always hear about. Whether it be good or bad.
I'm sorry for all those times I've ever hurt you. But you've done pretty much the same back. And people, in this case, are right. It's time for change. It's time to move on. You can never be replaced. Not after all we've been through. We've both still got another year left together. And I'm sorry if it's not the way you'd like it to be. But it's how it is, and I'm moving on. I'm hoping you will too.
We're taking our time off from eachother now. Just like we planned. I'm sorry for intruding on a day that wasn't supposed to happen. But I called him cause he had called me. I simply wanted to see if he was done with his project. But I still apologize. And I always will. But not for everything. For you see, everything in life isn't fair. But some stuff should be in my mind. I'm sorry for all the pain you've gone through. And nothings ever exactly the same for others. But I get the idea. And it's a two way street.
I know you might read this. At the same time, I'm kinda wondering if you will. And I hope the messages in here are clear. I did care, and I always will. Just not to the same degree I once did with you. Me & him, will never be more then friends. And I'm happy to see him happy. And believe me, you do that with him so well. I'm glad he found you. But just because of that, doesn't mean I'm out. I've changed a bit throughout this whole thing. I've become somewhat more open with things. Both saying & doing. I don't know if it'll end up hurting me in the end, but for now it's all good. I'm sorry for how we act. But we're just close friends. He's like both my brother & son. And he'll say the same, I'm his sister & his mother. But please just do me one favor if you will?
I don't care what happens with us...I just don't wanna see him heartbroken or upset. So please be honest with him. Be truthfull and nice. He really does care about you so much. He talks about you a lot too. Believe me. He always has since you two met. And I've said it once, I'll say it again. You guys are good together. On a deeper scale at least. May not have much intrests in common, but you have emotions. Deeper then I can probably even imagine. So just keep the both of you happy if you can please? You're not a second. Never were. Not really. Trust me on this.
I know it doesn't mean much, but I love seeing you two happy. Just as I would any other friend and their girlfriend/boyfriend. But just know, I'm still there, just in a different mindset. I'm the sister now, and I'm perfectly happy with that. My job is to make sure he's happy. My methods are kinda off, but it works usually. But you mean so much to him, and you're happy with him. That's what counts to me. You guys together is amazing. And I'm sorry for any portion I've screwed up.
I know I'm just rambiling. But the break-up with us is on. Now when we hang out, it'll be seperatly. You & him. Me & him and maybe our friends. So it should all work out. Just look to the future, not the past. I've apologzied honestly for what I believe I've actually done.
"Keep your hopes up high & your head down low"-ADTR