"Dammit Freddie."
"No. Off."
"Shut up Freddie."
"Freddie I swear to god"
"Fucking cat get off."
Was it all a dream? Or was I really waking up every 10 minutes to Freddie on my lap biting me. I have no bite marks or scratches. So I honestly can't tell you. But I woke up before I actually got up. Somethings simply not right about today....
So yea, thats how/what I had woken up too. And mom repeatedly screaming at me to get up & eat. Also noting the fact I was on the phone until 12:30-1 with Joe....fun. He's become more suicidal then ever. He actually tried. He hung head phones from the shower but they had snapped before doing any damage... =\
I honestly don't really care, but in some odd way I do all the way in the back of my mind. Like, I don't like him personally at all. But he shouldn't go an kill himself. And he's been missing school and cutting again.....-.-'
He said he didn't have to keep his promise to me cause I had broken my promise of always being with him. Sorry but times change and thats no accuse for you to be a fucking baby. And don't pull the "it's how I am and you know I can't change it. You of all people taught me that." Personality speaking, thats bull crap. Cutting & Killing yourself isn't natural. At all. It's a state of mind. Mind doesn't always equal personality. Get over yourself.
Other then that, school has been normal mostly. Menake let me skip the test today cause I wasn't in school Friday and the class tricked her into letting them take it today (Tuesday). So I got time to chill & write Noreen her note :3
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