Why do I always get myself a lot of confidence...then it all jut vanish. Poof. Just like that.

Yea it use to be all of it would go poof. It's gotten better. But most of it still does.

I always put myself at the mersey of people. Without even trying.

It's like...even to those I know will screw up and hurt me, I still do this. I guess it'd cause I don't wanna lose them. But I know this aint worth it.

I just don't get why I secretly care so much. Eve when I know that nothings going to happen. And all that will, is that I'll get hurt.

Why?