I don't want to even be here anymore...

I don't. I really don't. I'm tired and fucking sick of everyone and their bullcrap. I don't want to go back to school. I don't wanna be in this god forsaken place. They all say it's safe, that's a god damn fucking load. No one says or does anything to help. Nothing does anymore. I'm breaking. I'm not some strong minded girl anymore. I'm weak, and it just keeps getting worse and worse. I always thought I'd be able to handle this, and still help everyone else. Or at least be able to help them. But I just can't. And I fucking hate myself to no end. I'm smiling yea, but no one knows what I'm feeling inside. My parents are just hitting the bubbles of such a deep ocean of layers. I'm only here because of some family & Scruffy. Honestly. I'm sick of everyone. And for the most part, excluding some, they honestly can go fucking burn. I don't care anymore. I'm complaining yes. I'm speaking up yes. Why? 'Cause I just can't do it anymore..