I'm always changing my mind. I just can't seem to make it up, or keep it up. Whatever I do, I somehow regret. Or at least, I think about in doubt. I know I'm only human but this is true. I can't help think about the things I do anymore. Right and wrong, seem to have just combined. And there seems to be nothing I can do about where I'm going. I need some serious help, cause I'm just scaring myself at this point. I don't need profesional, just some real friends. One's who will stay with me, not betray me. Blame me. Hate me. No one who fakes. And sadly, that's pretty much everyone. I'm finding myself in the wierdest of situations, though it just might be the time. I don't know. Honestly I don't know much anymore. My thoughts aren't focused on what they should be. Let alone on anything. Nothing good thats for sure. I look at someone I care about, and I feel bad. I feel horrible inside knowing I'll just probably end up hurting them in the end. Or I'll be hurt because I'll push them away. But if I do, they're probably better off anyways. I wanna thank Scruffy for everything. But I know the road I'm on now isn't gonna have a great ending. Honestly? I have an idea, but I won't say. I'm knowing that I'm constantly wrong. And in this case? I'm hoping it stays that way with this at least.
God...I just want to get the hell out of here..
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