Sometimes...

Everything happens for a reason right?
Well what was the reason for this?
Really now...
Please tell me
Cause I really can't find anything good
To come out of this

Somethings wrong
When someone like me
Turns around every-so-often
Hoping to see you
Just you
Looking over at me
Or maybe just watching TV...
Why?

I've gone insane
At least in this sense
I shouldn't care
I shouldn't
But reality check?
I do
I really fucking do
And I hate it

You don't give two shits
Nothing about me
Ever seems to enter your mind
Only when you're in trouble
And need someone elses help
After everyone else left
Thats when you're here
Thats when you're back
That's when I'm happy

I love talking to you
Always have
I can't even explain why
I guess I fell for all the things you
Well, use to say
But what the fuck?
That was months ago
And I still can't even let go?
Why..

You've made my way of thinking
My choice in guys
My life
So much more difficult
Thanks so much
I guess I diserve this
For even trying to think
That I ever meant anything
You're such a joke
But I'm the pawn
Why?
Cause I went along with it..
Even without knowing
Up until now..

I don't get you
How can you do this?
To someone
The one person
That looks up to you
Above all else
I wish I could say
"I'd do anything for you"
But I wont
Cause theres only one person
Ever in my life
That I would
And thats..
Well...
Our best friend.

But theres SO much
That I wish I could just tell you
And things might actually change
But I know nothing ever will
You're better off
And anyways
Every girl falls for a jerk right?
I guess this fits then
I fucking adore you
But you're only my very first
Real loving jerk.
Thanks a lot...
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